Long Awaited News

^It's not untrue. Today was my last official day of summer work. And my first day back to my classroom to start getting it ready for a new class. 

Huck had to inspect the things
I was taking back to school. 

As much as it seems like the summer was way too short, I always get a little excited about going back once I start setting up my room. This year I am especially excited to meet a new class. Last year was really rough, and after much reflecting this summer, I've come to a realization. You see, I don't believe that last year was as bad as it could have been--not nearly as bad as I was anticipating. Not that that made it easy. I had some tough kiddos. And watching them interact with each other and with the world, I started asking some big questions. But here's what sticks with me, two months later. Here's what made it hard: I had kids who didn't want to be there, and there was nothing I could do about it. At conferences, I had parents tell me their kids didn't want to come to school, because the other kids were so mean. Because they never stopped teasing. And saying inappropriate things. And being disrespectful. I tried really hard to make my classroom a safe, comfortable, loving haven that my kids couldn't wait to come to every day. And I believe I did that for many of them. But for some, I just couldn't. 

That is a feeling I carried with me all year long, on top of everything else I had going on. So as I move forward, I'm really trying to think about how this year will be different--how I can make it different. 

And, on the bright side, things seem to be heading in the right direction...I whisper cautiously, with all my toes and fingers crossed.

Lots of good vibes from things that have happened lately. 

My Donors Choose project got funded in a matter of a few days--shout out to all my amazing donors! Due to district restrictions, I had to keep it under $500. This is only a third of the unfinished list I have in mind. Going to approach with caution and see if I can get approval for a second one from my principal. Unsure how that will go over, but excited that I have a place to start for giving my kids options for flexible seating.

Salary negotiations for 2018-2019 are finally done. This has had some positive effects for me, and makes me feel much better about the year ahead(starting with my upcoming road trip!)We've been able to keep money in savings this summer, which is a big plus, since my summer paychecks usually just get us through to my first August check. Working Rec and Shipt has also been super helpful. Being able to do things without feeling such a "squeeze" has been freeing. We are on the road to where we want to be--perhaps it's adulting?!

My first girls' road trip is really going to be happening! In just a few weeks, right before we go back to school, I am headed to Nashville with two of my besties. I could not be more excited! It's the first time I am doing a vacation with friends(how did I get to 31 years old before this happened?!)

My HCG is finally below two--undetectable! This was the best birthday present I could have asked for. Beyond excited to know that soon I will get to move to monthly blood work, and soon after that, maybe,, just maybe...

But until then...

Make plans, and God laughs. Find the joy in every day.